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Land of Nod

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads by waldopaper on March 29, 2023

Rub a Dub

Cain get to the pub

Crowded—can we believe,
not in utter disgust,
in ironical play—
but the maker of cities grew faint
with the beauty of temple

Pandy Bee was all the rage when she disappeared.  Her line of clothing was doing well when she left to take care of her crazy grandfather who lived in the north woods or some kind of styx place in the boonies that was hard to find and you could not get there from here.  This was 1905- the modern era- the days of unsinkable ships and flying machines.  Pandora Blaskowitz designed bicycle clothes, but her name wasn’t fooling anybody.  The girls changed the name of her clothing line and began to copy it in big cities all over the world.  Soon she sent letters but no sketches to Murdock Sutherland in Nova Scotia- but these went largely unanswered as were so many dead letters from the new world.  The old world had sectional conflict as well usually stirred by the church and all its holdings visible and invisible.  Genesis 4:17 says that after arriving in the Land of Nod, Cain’s wife bore him a son Enoch… in whose name he built the first city.  

All the way to the market and back to her house Daisy wrestled mentally over how Madame Laveau could have possibly known what she did unless she was truly clairvoyant. She laid her food bags on an iron bench in her courtyard and began to consult her little journal for the names and rooms of the people she had living with her who were waiting for the Dart.  There indeed was the name of Claude Benoit, an artist with iron trellis work, third floor front facing street. Waving for one of the women to receive the packages she asked for her to find and send the Jacques (that she knew well) along with the Claude (that she was not familiar with) to her in the courtyard where she waited.

One Drink Juice

Though we wander about,
find no honey of flowers in this waste,
is our task the less sweet—
who recall the old splendour,
await the new beauty of cities?

Years ago when Daisy’s family had lived in New Orleans, her mother had frequented a hairdresser by the name of Marie Laveau. Madame Laveau had another business at her home that Daisy began to frequent as a young lady, anxious for the excitement life might bring her. Just before she left New Orleans Daisy spent many an evening listening to Marie at the St. Ann Street address learning of her parents past arguments broken dreams and plans for their futures. More interesting… she learned of her own dazzling future- romancing and world travels to come. To Daisy it seemed as though the light had been trained to display a skull on the table placed under the tapestry which she explained had come from a wealthy lover from Haiti.

He had left her but she had known it was coming of course. Marie had chickens in the back room clucking away not too contentedly exercising the occasional squawk  as if disturbed. The room was well lit… overlit actually… and had a scent of the tropics. Marie had taken care to drop one drop… to the well where the melted wax would pool while burning. Tell me Madame Marie (Daisy would beg constantly) the names of my loves and the ones who might abandon me!

Henry pulled out the pocket watch Daisy had gifted him in St. Louis. Closed it and remembered how he’d assumed that she’d lifted it from some theater client. As a crescendo of hooves brought him back to the present, he turned to see Thabo approaching again. What are you waiting for boss. You gonna have to feed and water me afore we bounce that machine all over the prairie though. Sehr gut. Let’s go. And in no time landed on a deserted stretch of the Grand River in Dakota Territory now as a floating vessel whining its way toward Sitting Bull… Standing Rock- and most hopefully: Chaska. Henry put all his concentration toward hopes that his meeting could be without an arrow in his back… artfully drawn and released by Chaska himself.    

You see where this is going.  That’s right.  Atlanta.  Coca-Cola. A place inland from Charleston and Savannah.  The other Charleston is on the Ohio river- where they mine coal.  Three men in a tub and who do you think they Bee.  It made no sense.   So Murder left the next letter at the post office.  Someone had to remember.  Bartleby would prefer not to- a story of Wall Street   

The city is another story. 

The city is peopled
with spirits, not ghosts, O my love:
 
Though they crowded between
and usurped the kiss of my mouth
their breath was your gift,
their beauty, your life.

The Horned God

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads by waldopaper on March 25, 2023

Clever Boyz Klub

First they must catch you. Be cunning and full of tricks
and your people shall never be destroyed.
what shaft, tearing my heart?
what scar, what light, what fire
searing my eye-balls and my eyes with flame?

Imagine that you are in a huge black box.  A dark room.  Exactly.  You got rubber arms that extend ten feet.  What about ten hands.  Stop that.  You can find the sides of the box and maybe touch the ceiling.  Or if there are any holes in the floor.  Precisely.  Or if there are any sharp objects in the room or a big man with a club in your way.  You got it.  Do you shoot out as far as possible to find the edge… no- you extend gingerly to explore the texture.  Had to learn to read… not only English but German.  Knew nothing about reading the signs until I met the American people.  And American horses.  Never mind that.  Think with your nose down.  We will not train them how to shoot- but by god we can teach YOU how to fly.  This other nonsense with the time machine is your choice and if you can get down without breaking your legs I will tell you about Chaska’s Wampum Bear.

Girls from the theatre were there.  Conversation turns to navel architecture where a flower bulb cost as much as a villa.  In the same goddam town.  Remember Fernando who could honor a card as well as anybody.  Destructor he say.  Dread naught methinks.  Means fear nothing.  Biggest tubes biggest boobs meh.  Live in the flower bulb.  We head for sweet home Chicago.  We turn sideways.  We puff out our tail.  We ride uncertainty like the wind.  And now there is the machine and then zillions of silly fuckers to run their death bulbs the size of an island for ribbon and rank and a chance to be famous.  Glory.  In the papers.  So that is why we carry them.  Let us use them lads to see if anybody calls our bluff.  Listen to their voices.  The debt we pay to human guile. She will need bigger engines.  And our special war paint.  Lord of butterflies playing tag in a mead…

nameless, O spoken name,
king, lord, speak blameless Hymen.

Old man.  Our mission is to survive and thrive.  Young fool. What is the most loathsome thing in the world to you – a spider- a snake- a turd.  That is you yourself… because we become what we hate.  We are a black spider on a red flag.  If they see what you are- they will want to kill you- and rightfully so.  You can’t judge the wind speed when your shit is in the wind.  Carrying weapons at sea like a harpoon or a net is one thing.  Carrying weapons designed to kill other ships is quite another and the Dart for sure does not want to kill other ships.  The guns we could mount on my little biplane alone would make them shit themselves.  You can smell the brimstone.  If they knew your little toy has an electric motor their brains would explode.  Yes and if they know we judge altitude by electricity they would shit their brains out their assholes!    

You did not have to explain the horrors of war to the deutsch hausfrauen who had been elbow deep in chicken guts all her life before the Battle of Gettysburg … or the Irish fishwife dragging bodies out of the sea, or the Scottish shepherd lass with a brand on her ass for speaking of the goat-horned goddess.  Punta looked out at the grass strip by Pancake Lake and remembered where old man Henry let her take his precious Great Lakes Aero plane up by herself.  He pointed and laughed at the sticks and twigs in the landing gear.  HAW!  Stupid-head greenhorn pilot almost kills girlie ass self before learning to do a proper Immelmann.  Wathint’ abafazi, wathint’ imbokodo, uzokufa.

you strike the women, you strike the rock, you will be crushed.
O Hymen, from his bride,
(cowering with woman eyes,) the veil?
O Hymen lord, be kind.

Demonz R US 

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads by waldopaper on March 22, 2023

Stecken und dein Stab

Galahad… knight who perished… awaken again,
   Teach us to fight for immaculate ways among men.

The age of chivalry was named after horses you know.  You mean the other horses had nothing to do with the name.  That’s right.  It is tribalism that all animals know… the same way they learn the man-with-stick trick.  Henry.  What about women.  Murdock Sutherland is one of my design students and she designed your putzen frau.  Yes, putzi one day may be a coat of arms.  Meanwhile- Henry spoke grimly- you must learn the dance of aerial combat- like the fencers’ dance is a stylized technique.  Pitch roll and yaw are your only dimensions.  There is a fourth dimension.  A fourth shadow.  That is size- and the ability to go from sand grain to star in a blink.  I do believe that is the secret to immortality.  If you have seen the thousand-yard stare… you know it as the mark of demented people.  There are plow horses, carriage horses, dancing horses and war horses. Dancing Bear is still a great chief.  That is another story.  

Chaska rode the hills toward Wyoming fed up. He was looking for Hawk and crying like the loud kitten to draw him. He needed him for no particular reason but company. They spoke the same language and both of them were usually fed up. His Ogallala brothers were about to join the United States without gaining anything for it. If Chaska had been asked to contribute, he would have told them they were joining at great loss to their people. But the chiefs and headmen of all the Sioux tribes didn’t exactly understand that they would be joining the United States that he called The Great Lie. They wanted peace as everyone wanted peace, and a U.S. council of Indian Affairs found a smooth way to sell the tribes a treaty. Chaska decided he would have to protect as many buffalo as possible because after the treaty it would be impossible.

His elders did not ask for counsel, his elders took all responsibility. Even those like Chaska who knew these white men as lying opportunists were not consulted for the final determinations regarding the lives of their people. They never asked how it was to work for and alongside the white man’s war machine he called Death Face.

Soldiers fantastic, we pray to the star of the sea,
   We pray to the mother of God that the bound may be free.

Five days later Henry was pouring a scotch for Daisy at the brand new Peabody Hotel in Memphis before heading to the boat, leaving Captain Blaskowitz sulking in the engine room experimenting with dials and using conspiratorial thoughts. Before he brought Daisy back to the Dart, he would have to do some back pedaling and conspiratorial work of his own. Daisy would be staying in New Orleans to meet with the Feds who were still arranging the exodus of freed slaves to northern jobs. The speed of Henry’s vessel was nothing short of astonishing, and he was by far the most successful of their runners. The winter in the northeast was a record breaker this particular year. She looked so forward to making the coming run.

Getting aloft enough to see the future is an ancient power that also carries an ancient curse.  Like the honeybee carries a sting.  Exactly.  We must use this power wisely.  It may be possible to use the Dart as a weapon but you remember how you learned to use the saber.  Banzo’s sword.  Yes.  You hit me with a stick whenever I didn’t expect it and later I was the only one who could catch the ship’s big orange cat Placebo.  You never caught me.  Honey trap.  Results the same smiles Punta and looks him in the eye.  Everybody knows what it means to roll snake-eyes.  Like cat-eyes.  For a flash Punta saw the horizontal goat-eye.  Madame Lacroix- our patron- is a bit old-fashioned.  Miss Daisy thinks we have a marvelous flying machine.  If she thinks we have a time machine she will want to go back and win the goddam war.  The horned god.  Horny grinds exceeding fine. 

Stone wheel 

Arm them with strength mediaeval, thy marvellous dower,
Blast now their tempters, shelter their steps with thy power.

Argument Class

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads, Uncategorized by waldopaper on March 17, 2023

Henry & Fifth Ltd.

We find your soft Utopias as white
   As new-cut bread, and dull as life in cells,
   O, scribes who dare forget how wild we are
   How human breasts adore alarum bells.

Sell to the classes- dine with the masses.  Sell to the masses- dine with the classes.  Levi’s sister Fanny and her husband David Stern moved to St. Louis, Missouri, while Levi went to live in Louisville, Kentucky, and sold his brothers’ supplies there.  Levi became an American citizen in January 1853.  Henry knew Jewish boys German boys black boys rich and poor boys.  Henry never did understand girls.  N. Thomas Thabo shook his head and smiled.  The old-time Union boss had come to make another offer you couldn’t refuse.  You wouldn’t refuse it either- most people didn’t.  Chaska and Thabo had recruited talented people from all over the world to work for either VonHot or Camp Schatzenputz and their jobs were their heritage.

They don’t need no doctor.  They had their own, the Schatz-Vonhot tribe had become like orthodox practitioners of an ancient religion by 1895 in that they tended to shun all others.  Like the Hasidim in Europe or the Hutterites in America- they keep to themselves.  The Gypsy and Roma girls taught Henry all he needed to know about love and romance.  Or so he thought.  They lived in the forest unseen by most until they traveled the roads.  Lord how Henry liked to talk about the girls in the old country… until he met the girls in the new country I suspect noted Thabo, but Henry was never the marrying kind.  Like old Jubal Early- he had other things to do at the time.  Henry missed out on being a daddy. Made him sad for life- with short temper and sharp tongue.

Promise us all our share in Agincourt
   Say that our clerks shall venture scorns and death,
   That future ant-hills will not be too good
   For Henry Fifth, or Hotspur, or Macbeth.

Chaska the Indian loved animals like African Thabo loved the river life… but Henry loved machines.  Henry giggled out loud when writing to Willie Daimler in Germany about motorcycles.  Their correspondence was often too long and technical to use the wireless and there were trade secrets.  Oath is oath- that is the Truth… but with sacred people, their yes or no simply means yes or no.  A partnership with them is worth more than anything on earth. From coffin to birth it stays the same.  A function that allows form is the name of the game.  Henry was always going on about their fit and finish like they were guns or ships.  Henry was born to serve the classes… Strauss taught Henry how to make the capital dance.   

Miss Pandora Blaskowitz… chuckles Uncle T… yeah we all called you Punta back in the day.  Here is the offer:  you learn to operate the Dart from Henry.  You know what we do by now:  we take the best parts in the world… and make the only ones in the world.  You can see what the people are wearing; pants.  Your factory girls will have access to the best textile designers and fabricators in the world.  Refuse the offer.  Go back to taking your chances in haute couture and nobody will blame you (Thabo grinned).  It’s hard to make fancy dresses for fancy ladies.  We’ll get Henry to fly the goddam Dart even if he’s blind as a bat and crazier than a beerhall rat.  Pandora smiled.  She’ll be a Jenny with yellow wings and take Henry back to the civil war. 

Daisy was right about the blue egg in the old country.  Rue egg.  Fest und snit.  Warehouse. 

I have seen priestesses of life go by
   Gliding in samite through the incense-sea—
   Innocent children marching with them there,
   Singing in flowered robes, “THE EARTH IS FREE”:

Cracks and Yawns   

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads, Uncategorized by waldopaper on March 12, 2023

channels of an incense-sea

   Ah, in the night, all music haunts me here….
   Is it for naught high Heaven cracks and yawns
   And the tremendous Amaranth descends

Horses do not live as long as people do.  Twenty to thirty years at most so Pony was gone by 1885 while the Buoys were clanging at sea or on the river or something.  When we do not know how another species thinks- how do we know how another gender thinks- or any other division you please.  Each critter has their gender division according their nature like birds and bees.  Dogs are the same way.  We call them livestock.  Punta glanced at the windsock.  Her first flying lessons were like that.  Henry says he learned this from the Blessed Virgin herself.  Choice.  Dear sweet Mother of God. Would you have chosen your life.  Ponder all these joyful and sorrowful mysteries and such but fly your goddamn airplane.  Pitch roll and yaw… that is your universe… keep the sun at your back. Keep one eye on the instruments- the other on the ground.  Listen to your engine like you listen to the sails and the cries of those who go aloft- or in the wilderness.  The student pilot squirmed and squinted at the gaunt spruce switching its tail outside like a very annoyed cat. 

Once in a while Henry would fall into a creeping depression. He supposed it had much to do with the Gettysburg battle and its aftermath. After the war he had suffered constant nightmares causing him to lose sleep. The sleep deprivation opened fissures into his soul where the depression ejaculated from him, rather than into him, as one might think might be the case with such maladies. He had little trouble passing out due to the assistance of alcohol, but by one or two in the morning the nagging of comrades and screams of the enemy had begged him to pay attention to…early morning the wasted apparitions of bony bleeding and clutching fingers would again claw their way into the doorway… taking advantage of each crack… to expose and use his wretched soul. But this most recent depression was one that he could not seem to ignore. He craved sleep. He craved real, uninterrupted, revitalizing sleep. Reuniting with Pony (who was very happy to see him) they left Paducah with little notice and began to follow the Cumberland River toward Nashville and the Cathedral of the Blessed Virgin of the Seven Sorrows.

Such things I see, and some of them shall come
   Though now our streets are harsh and ashen-gray,
   Though our strong youths are strident now, or dumb.

Bishop Miles, the church founder, was buried under the altar soon after he died some five years prior. The church’s architect was a German fellow not unlike Henry and George. It was difficult settling Catholics into Tennessee and Bishop Miles worked against many odds to do it. It was a blessing that he died when he did… avoiding any knowledge of secession and war. After a satisfying supper Henry agreed to stay with the Leitner’s where he and Pony spent a comfortable night and slept without any interference from their past. On the next bright and cooler day in late August, Henry and Pony resumed their travel southeasterly toward Daisy and the farm. Henry should arrive in plenty of time to help with planting more autumn greens. This time when he met up with Daisy he would be accompanied by a newer attitude that had been planted inside of him during a dream inside a church. Without changing any other aspect of his being, Henry had learned and welcomed the processing of a grace in acceptance, and admittedly Henry felt it to be a most divine acquisition.

All pilots are superstitious whether from ignorance, fear of the unknown, trust in magic or chance. They say it is a false conception of causation.  Sailors have always been superstitious.  The sailor can be at sea for months… pilots are only in the sky for minutes- and nobody gets stuck up there.  That’s why sailors lie and pilots deny.  Look at that twitchy wind.  Clear air turbulence. The wind cat already told Punta the sky was going to be rough.  Only on the ground kid.  Above the hills and trees it might be worse- unless you use the current like all good river pilots do. Banks or shoals- bridges or tolls- they engage because they think they are better than you because they are.  Never have the moon at your back unless you want to give them a good scare.  Transmitters or transformers… transgender is where things change state- like from water to ice- or steam.  Pemberton red cola. 

This is not a dream.  

   Naught can delay it.  Though it may not be
   Just as I dream, it comes at last I know
   With streets like channels of an incense-sea.

Change beyond Change  

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads, Uncategorized by waldopaper on March 9, 2023

get cool boy

I LOOK on the specious electrical light
Blatant, mechanical, crawling and white,
Wickedly red or malignantly green
Like the beads of a young Senegambian queen.

Don’t get hot ‘Cause man, you’ve got Some high times ahead

The US Civil War was a pre-emptive counter-revolution.  Think about that for a minute.  What revolution- why the industrial revolution of course- that happened over 100 years earlier in Scotland.  Then there was all this jackadoodle about central vs local government and other ideological stuffing to plump up any revolution when the rulers are seriously fucking up or they blame the rulers (and their priests) for things beyond anyone’s control.  That’s how the war got started.  I wish you would stop talking about the war.  Hell any war.  Fighting means killing, but war means business, and it’s a dangerous and evil business- but profitable if you know where to look.  We look for signs in the sky.  Someday the Dart will look like an 800 ft torpedo instead of the elegant vessel she is.  This old Henry belongs in a forest with trees and old rivers.

How Sherman missed the plantation in 1864 was a gift from God itself. Normally it’s a negative sort of exclamation to say missed by a mile, in Daisy’s situation it was a miracle. They could actually hear the horses and the louder of the commands being issued down the road that led to Griffin. As they stashed and buried valuables and tried to secure hiding places for each other, Daisy and her crew spent days holding their breath at any new sound, anticipating the arrival of scouts at any moment who may have been dispatched to investigate the surroundings of the route the ruthless general had undertaken for the Union Army. Finally, they simply sat on the porch with cellar cooled tea, and waited. They had never sparked attention. It was with Henry at an eatery. I remember, she thought. In Beaufort. We were on the road, traveling.

Breeze it, buzz it Easy does it Turn off the juice, boy

We have created a species that is superior to us in every way that counts.  Punta nodded.  You got any kids Henry.  Sure.  Had to leave them all behind when I jumped.  Yes we heard.  About the Shoshone woman.  Her name means Little Horse.  Cold nights alone on the Nebraska prairie wrapped tighter than a Cuban cigar in my buffalo robe for weeks and wake with her behind me on the same night at waxing moon.  Daylight she was gone and Pony was there.  Very similar markings.  Same horse probably.  Most likely the same woman too…because I saw horse and woman together.  Changelings- I believe.  Do you think the original people here sat around eating grass with their thumbs up their ass while we invented Christianity- nein. They had other technology. 

By dart or by tumble of whirl within whirl,
Starting new fads for the shame-weary girl,

They carefully laid Quantrill in the wagon, not for his comfort but simply for careful transportation back to Louisville and Palmer’s inspection. He died there in the military hospital on June 6th, 1865.  Henry missed General Sherman’s Louisville speech on his visit that July 4th and went and reintroduced himself as the brother of the lovely lady that dined together with him at the war’s beginning in Beaufort. Daisy would not have approved. Sherman had no way of knowing that Henry, with only two hired killers, had been responsible for cleaning out virtually all of the Kentucky guerrilla gangs in less than two month’s time. He made sure to make use of the saber and packed his lucrative earnings with his belongings and made his way west to Pony. Then, he headed back south to Georgia.

Henry took a stick from his pocket and gave it to Punta.  Picked up this stick during the battle and carried it ever since and loved it and talked to it too when I was alone because it reminded me of my XI Corps boys and all that we did that day.  Even though it’s just a piece of wood.  Never yell theatre in a crowded fire.  When I look down at the battle now I can’t see myself- I’m not there.  And that gives one a strange cold kind of scare.  You will feel it too very soon.  Beware.  Well thanks- I guess.  The gender war is the last stage in the class struggle we must endure first- like the rocks and snags on shore.  Maybe that stick will remind you of all the war stores I told you and I won’t have to waste my breath.  As soon as you try to win- we all lose.

Theatre in a crowded fire thought the new pilot.  One day Henry might tell her that stick fell into his pocket outside the Pancake bar about an hour ago.  Lord of hosts. She saw the elephant.

But not like a yo-yo schoolboy

The signs in the street and the signs in the skies
Shall make me a Zodiac, guiding and wise,
And Broadway make one with that marvelous stair
That is climbed by the rainbow-clad spirits of prayer.

hidden wine

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads by waldopaper on March 6, 2023

It is not wisdom to forget.

Let me rejoice this Sunday noon,
And kneel while gray priests sing.
 

There were others up there observing the battle with great interest.   Others?  Henry plainly had gender issues.  Punta was reading the Times society page to see what the Vanderbilts were wearing.  She was putting on her Captain’s dress uniform and becoming the infamous Pablo Diablo… Paul the Devil- as he is known from Barcelona to Constantinople… and they were off the coast of France.  With her fake mustache she looked like a wiry Prussian officer- but Captain of the mysterious Dart… reputed to be an advanced warship of neutral Spain or maybe a ghost ship like the harbor goops all say.  About last night says Puta- lowering her eyes.  Henry says he was too drunk to remember and if you do- don’t tell me about it. 

Yes others… above the portal- Cemetery Hill during the battle.  You saw them too didn’t you.  They were scouts and they were taking measurements and probing specific individuals and artefacts… and you clearly intend to go ashore.  That’s right.  We are a merchant vessel and we are unarmed.  Our orders are specific.  Ja.  Well Dimeson and Haploid have the turbines under control but the engine doesn’t have enough capacitors and you know how god-awful expensive they are and we can’t refit until we return to port and good old 1905 Copper Harbor.  Henry.  It’s 1915.  Chaska was presumed dead five years ago.  You have seen the screens. Ja.  The screens. 

Fill thou my soul with hidden wine
To make this white hour great.

Our optical equipment is the best in the world and no one else has our far-seer.  So nobody else in the world has seen what you have just seen on our screens and you ain’t seen shit.  I saw aircraft carriers.  Big deal.  We knew that was coming.  Look at the signs you can read from a mile away.  Now think how crazy nuts it is to go ashore and mingle with the unborn.  Just to get notes from the future.  And you have noticed that anybody who touches anything stays where they are.  The Dart went from a blockade runner to piracy when she was still a sailing ship with twin 100 hp steam engines. 

Before electricity took hold… Daimler and the internal combustion engine and now you think you are an aircraft pilot.  Come and look at our biplane- we call it the Great Lakes design.  Real aircraft and real sailing ships are antiques now… like Greek and Latin.  By 1945 they will have slaughterhouses for people.  Look at Napoleon before Moscow.  We still rely on the subjugation and predation of other species… and how we have managed to go ashore and come back is more luck than we deserve.  You need to learn to fly aircraft just like you need to learn to sail… and speak Greek and such.  You need to allow for the wind. Reminds me of a girl I met in Paris. 

…and in a dark brown voice she said Lola

My God, my God, this marvelous hour
I am your son I know.

A woman came over asking for conversation. She was tilting a bit next to his table. He thought about her for a minute but she kept coming in and out of focus. He was reminded of a similar interest once in England. No. It was God damned France. The woman there in France was so sweet. She took his money and he never knew it until the next day. So now he tried to get up and after three tries he did. He recognized the fact that he was going to be a spectacular sight getting across the room and out of  the door. He’d send a bill for entertainment tomorrow. The woman asked if she could help. He shrugged her off and started forward ahead of his feet but somehow got to the door. A man in uniform shuffled him toward Fort Anderson. In the morning he found an envelope with his bar bill. That’s right. He never paid. Did the officers know. He rolled over to sleep more. He couldn’t muster with the others. Aw shit. He was in the military. No longer a free agent. He was in trouble and way too sick to care. By 1865 he was getting ready to quit assisting the military having put in his time. He was welcoming his return to being a free agent. On his first day of freedom he heard a name he had forgotten about.

She had never noticed his being so agreeable with everything she said.  He was relieved… it was obvious. Daisy had noticed an unsettling disposition surrounding the entire group ever since they had arrived. They were past disillusionment. They had seen something none of them could reconcile. Her visitors seemed to have given up hope. In what- Daisy could not tell. She would not probe although she knew herself to be impatient with such things she moved herself to quietly nurture. She would try to keep them busy while providing for basic needs until they healed. Every last one of them. Kissing Henry on the forehead… I will retire now she said and I’ll work on my list while you work on yours. We can swap them at breakfast. You know where I am if you need me…for anything. As she started to leave she turned to him once more. What the hell kind of horse is that you rode in on anyway. She said this in an effort to lighten the mood. Henry looked up. That’s Pony. He’s my protection spirit. Chaska would have been proud he thought. I see. I guess I’ll try to get to know him tomorrow. And she left to retire for the evening.

Retire.  Hell yes.  Daimler had the same idea and look what happened to his machine- because they wanted to steal his engine.  Willie was a gunsmith too you know.  No.  That’s why we find who is making the decisions.  Maybe we will find out why.  Maybe not.  They are capitalists who wouldn’t know capital if it bit them on the ass.   Capital is anything that confers value or benefit to its owners.  Owners.  Right.  See a pattern here.  The ship is alive and sentient… and it’s only an embryo compared to what it will become.  We must proceed toward Atlanta before Sherman gets there.  Henry the war is… No I am talking Madame Lacroix teaching you such magic as young girls know because your bumblefuck use of power speed and altitude.  We anchor in Charleston or Savannah and nest at night high in the Georgia pines.  Uncle Billy knows we won the race.  Dart will have no owners.  She will own us and we better get used to it… but Daisy is rather old-fashioned.  Sir I will tell her: such things young women tell their mothers.  Henry could guess what that meant.  Would not have been surprised if Punta had been one of Daisy’s girls all along.  God in Heaven.  Pink moon- thunder weather. 

Where you drink champagne and it tastes just like coca cola…  C-O-L-A, Cola.  

Once in a thousand days your voice
Has laid temptation low.
 

Effect and Cause 

Posted in Answers, Cool shit, Rants, Reality, Stupid-heads, Uncategorized by waldopaper on March 1, 2023

Worth Fighting Four

Two old crows sat on a fence rail.
Two old crows sat on a fence rail,
Thinking of effect and cause,
Of weeds and flowers,
And nature’s laws.

Two of the pilots walked in.  Bush pilots probably but regulars at Pancake Lake because they didn’t pay for their beer and it sat untouched while the old pilot and the young dude had their heads close together like they do when they don’t want nobody to hear.  They had long lost the heads on their beers but they waved the nosy bartender away because they were not interested in suds today.  You’re gonna tell me that same war story again eh.  Ja.  A trooper out alone with a big cavalry horse and saddle would lose both and his scalp too.  By morning horse was gone but I still had the saddle.  At dusk this Shoshone woman rode out of the gloaming on the horse with no saddle and a little horse following.  I tried to throw the saddle over the little horse- it stepped away and Shoshone woman laughed.  Saddle on ground again.  Shoshone Woman laugh again.  Little horse has no bridle and Shoshone laugh herself hard off big cavalry horse.  It was a target of opportunity and I spent the winter of 1858 with her People.  That was almost fifty years ago pop.  You saying it’s a ghost horse.  That’s what I’m saying.  Punta took the time to drink it all in.  Then she gathered up the nerve to tell Henry:  I think there’s another portal old man.  Well there’s more. Listen.

By the seventh hour of fighting on the third day, the Union strongholds had been taken given up and retaken 6 and 7 times over. Custer had come in from the south and cut off valuable reinforcements needed by the Confederates. Lee had one last strategy to take Meade’s advantage that failed when Meade anticipated the play. Just when Meade had begun to understand Lee’s battle plan, he began a serious motion toward retreat. Chaska was manic in his fighting. He could not seem to stop. He was attacking without threat of being attacked: all alone. Finally coming to his senses and surveying the dead all around him, he was thankful that the Spirits had favored him with continued life. The carnage around him was beyond his comprehension. This breed of men were the worst of living creatures. His people only killed out of necessity and no one had yet been able to explain to him any need for this kind of killing. He was ashamed of his part in it. He vowed to use the remainder of his life to make the Spirits proud. He went off in search of Henry in order to say goodbye.

Henry put on his specs and read an interview published in the New York Herald on October 15, 1911 Tesla says, “The flying machine of the future — my flying machine — will be heavier than air, but it will not be an aeroplane. It will have no wings. It will be substantial, solid, stable. My flying machine will have neither wings nor propellers. You might see it on the ground and you would never guess that it was a flying machine. Yet it will be able to move at will through the air in any direction with perfect safety, higher speeds than have yet been reached, regardless of weather.  It can remain absolutely stationary in the air, even in a wind, for a great length of time. Its lifting power will not depend upon any such delicate devices as the bird has to employ but upon positive mechanical action. My airship will have neither gas bag nor wings nor propellers. It is the child of my dreams, the product of years of intense and painful toil and research. I am not going to talk about it any further. But whatever my airship may be, here at least is an engine that will do things that no other engine ever has done, and that is something tangible.” The young flyer nodded. We had a six-year lead before T spilled the beans.

Going back to my people, Henry. Yeah, well we’re going south. All the way to Georgia. Here. I have some civilian duds for you. I see nothing civil about them. You took them from the dead. Been done before. We’re blending with our surroundings. You’re going to see Miss Daisy. With a mission. Just need to help get her staffed and running again if needed. Then headed back toward Kentucky to get paid. You’re coming with us. No. Going back west. Yeah. Well fine. Help me look for Thabo first. Some of our side is burying soldiers. He’s sure to be in some detail forced to the task. Chaska squatted and looked at his horse’s hooves. Then he got up, cocked his head. Sure. Where the clothes. But you won’t see me after we find Thabo. We say our goodbyes right now. Henry dug into his packs and pulled out a farmer’s shirt pants and neck scarf. Keeping another pair of grey socks he gave Chaska his white ones.  He handed them to Chaska and left his hand out to shake with him. Chaska wasn’t interested. Eight hours later they found Thabo. He was digging… and crying.

Why does a bee have a sword to his fiddle?”
“Bee-cause,” said the other crow,
“Bee-cause,
B B B B B B B B B B B B B B B B-cause.”

They approached him slowly hoping to give him time to collect himself. He acknowledged them with a nod and kept digging… joined in song with his work crew and kept digging and crying. Henry turned to Chaska and they both shuffled around in the dirt. Thabo hadn’t left the job at hand. What do we do now. Not sure. Going over to that barn. Maybe get to feed my horse- get water- get out of here. Jawohl… raus mit du- go. I’ll sit under that tree where the extra shovels are. Wait for them to get done. Chaska laughed out loud… pointed and waved at the hundreds of corpses surrounding them. In that event guess I’ll find you here years from now if I ever come this far again. He walked his horse toward the barn not looking back. I came for you- Thabo. We’re going ahh… away for a few weeks. I have clothes for you. From the dead (Thabo looked at him in disgust and sniffled). What is it with you two. YES. From the dead. I’m not a fucking tailor. And we need them more than they do now. Both Chaska and Thabo looked toward the sky… looking for some kind of absolution.

Where we supposed to go. Georgia. Then back up to Kentucky to get paid and possibly out of service the right way. Guess this war is finally over. Thabo stopped crying. His emotions reverted to pre-war fear. Without whining he stated his position firmly and directly staring Henry down with steady eye contact. I ain’t never crossing that border into the south again Henry. Get that through that Hessian head of yours. S’ugly as ‘tis right now I’m a free man. An’ I’m taking good care o’ who and where I am to stay that way. Means just a few miles south o’ here is the end o’ the world for me. When Chaska caught on he almost smiled at Henry. Where do you think you’ll cross the river. I was thinking St. Louis again. Maybe tuck my hair up under a hat again and have a couple of steins with Kimm before I head to the plains. Maybe Thabo could travel with me. Not good for neither of us misfits to travel alone too far. We’ll swing past Merrimac ‘fore I have those beers. See if he can’t get his job back or mend fences for others. He gently patted Thabo on his back.

Thabo nodded but could not muster a smile. He was being summoned back to dig. When do we leave Chaska. Right now. I’ll take your spot you take Pony to that church over there and change. Chaska can find you a horse in the barn corral. Just tie Pony back to the tree here until Chaska gets back. I’ll see you two again sometime. He turned his back on the two and joined the Negro diggers. After about an hour he choked back tears. He never sang. That’s how the story was told to Punta ever since she was a child.  It changes you… after using the saber… not to fight- but to butcher.  Grandfather Chaska has always been crazy and Uncle Thabo aka. N. Thomas Thabo always makes offers you can’t refuse.  We needed an electrical generator, and what we got was a time machine.  When the generators were evolving into their transformer phase the machines started responding to Henry’s horse… and later old man Henry. 

He got his flying machine… but wanted no part in a time machine.  The past is- what it is- he says… and you can’t stop what’s coming.  If we can’t change the future we can at least see where it is. To the three old scouts and their new pilot… it was an offer they could not refuse.  

And those two black crows
Turned pale,
And away those crows did sail.
Why?